I have spent the past few days feeling very peaceful. I am unsure why. Some would say it is not important for me to know. A Buddhist friend suggested I may not want to be “attached” to reasons and understanding. For me it is important as when something goes well I like to be able to better understand why and replicate it.
I have given my sense of peace little thought other than to understand its importance to my life. The past few weeks have been pretty remarkable for me. Much of the changes I have made are secondary to my return to my meditation cushion combined with my willingness to let go of the things over which I have no control. The latter has always proven difficult for a person such as me who is often described as a “control freak.”
The First Noble Truth is “Life is suffering.” The Second Noble Truth indicates “The origin of suffering is attachment.” The Third Noble Truth is “The cessation of suffering is attainable” and the Forth Noble Truth is “There is a path to the cessation of suffering.” I walked off the path when I allowed myself to no longer sit on my meditation cushion. I allowed myself to use excuses such as “I’m too busy”, or “I’ll meditate longer later.”
I could have learned this lesson many years ago but my attachment to the need to control and my lack of willingness to see that I have no ability to control as well as the stress caused by my incessant desire to control had blocked my vision. I have stumbled upon the realization that learning this lesson earlier is not what is important. It is however important for me to understand I have come to this realization now. You know the old saying, “Better late than never.”
At 48 years of age there are many things I wish I knew a long time ago. I am thankful for the opportunities for growth and thankful I have identified and taken those opportunities. I remain on the path to cease suffering and may all beings be filled with joy and peace. The Dalai Lama said, “If you want others to be happy, practice compassion. If you want to be happy, practice compassion.”
Namaste and may you find the peace in your life for which you have been searching