Freeze, freeze thou bitter sky

I gently parted the blinds knowing if I spent more energy to peer out the window they would have fallen; fixing them was not on my list of things to do today.

It had rained hard throughout the night. Along the side of the road small lakes had formed, a testament to the ferocity of the rain. My eyes traveled toward the sky and an audible “Ugh!” was heard only by me. The sky was a mottled grey too reminiscent of a late December sky. I am unsure why I was surprised, perhaps I was looking for a sliver of orange light; just the right amount to to help kickstart my morning.
I feel off balance this week. Retiring early and rising early for my morning run has given me a purpose; an anchor for which I could grow my day. From this seed happiness grows and infects the remainder of my day. There are days which I rise and wish to not tend my garden. I know today one or two days off will not cause the crop to fail but it is those days which also lead to a desire to miss additional days.
I have not worked since Tuesday, using the previous vacation time I had stored like a squirrel storing nuts for the long winter. I have used this time to my advantage and have practiced the art of doing nothing. This has never been easy for me as my upbringing taught me to “work hard and excel” at everything I do. It has taken me many years to realize the world will not end if I dip into the reservoir of time and use this time for myself. I have come to enjoy the little things in life…again for I had enjoyed these things when I was a small child. I now take the time to go for a walk and see…to really see the beauty which surrounds me. i take the time to read, really immerse myself in the book which I have chosen at that time. I allow myself to become one with the characters as well as their activities.
These last few days have seen me become increasingly mindful of my life and of doing those things which bring me happiness. For many years I have done the things which I needed to do and which others have wanted me to do, now is my time.
I have chosen to include this poem by Shakespeare. I believe it fits this time of year nicely as it describes the weather during winter as well as the relationships we have with each other as humans. The poem is also about the insincerity we realize through human interaction and our unfaithfulness. It is these two components which are part of the bitterness of winter and of human relationships.
Blow, blow, thou winter wind
Thou art not so unkind
As man’s ingratitude;
Thy tooth is not so keen,
Because thou art not seen,
Although thy breath be rude.Heigh-ho! sing, heigh-ho! unto the green holly:
Most friendship if feigning, most loving mere folly:
Then heigh-ho, the holly!
This life is most jolly.Freeze, freeze thou bitter sky,
That does not bite so nigh
As benefits forgot:
Though thou the waters warp,
Thy sting is not so sharp
As a friend remembered not.
Heigh-ho! sing, heigh-ho! unto the green holly:
Most friendship if feigning, most loving mere folly:
Then heigh-ho, the holly!
This life is most jolly.

-William Shakespeare
Namaste
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